I love my boyfriend with all my heart we have had problems and that is why i’m scared he will find someone that he wants more or will fall in love with someone else. i try to be everything for him, i will and do anything for him. I just still have a wall up because of the past and i feel bad for having one but at the same time i don’t want to get hurt again. I just wish i had more trust for him around girls. He loves sex so that is why it freaks me out like what if he gets tired of our sex and wants something different. What if he wants someone that is thinner? I love with with everything i am, we have kids together, i want to be married to him. he is my world and i don’t want anything to happen to my little family we have together. We plan on getting our own place and living the life’s we want. We have broke up b4 but we both could not stand not being without each other. We have love that no one else will ever understand. But that does not mean we don’t have problems, but we still love each other more then anything (+ our kids) 

I love you so much baby and i’m just scared to lose you again and again till i can’t take it anymore and i don’t come back and i’m unhappy for the rest of my life. I don’t want to be unhappy. You make me happy. I can’t help that i have a wall up still just please tell me things and that wall will start to come down. I love you!

I’m so sick and tired of this house. I do everything in this fucking place for everyone. I don’t get a thank you from his mom i don’t need this shit..she will bitch about the small shit, But she does not care if this house is a mess or if it looks like trash. I clan and clean and clean and it does not matter what i do she turns around and says i don’t do anything. When she is the one that sits in her room on her computer and plays games or watches nexflix all fucking day. She dose not even want to take out her dog out to go to the bathroom she wants everyone to do everything for get and i’m done. I’m not taking out her dog i’m not doing her dishes. I’m doing everything for my kids my man and myself. If she wants to be taken care of then she needs to live somewhere else i’m already taking care of 2 kids and my man i don’t need another kid to take care of. Yes she is acting like a fucking kids. She says i don’t do anything, she says i’m childish but i’m doing everything and i can’t even get a thank you from her. NO I’M DONE! If she don’t like what i do in this house then she can get off her fucking ass and do it her god damn self! 

Ya know i moved in this house with my boyfriends mom because him and i have 2 kids together and i want our kids to know there father. I don’t mind doing things for my man or my kids. They are my family. When it comes to his mom i want to scream. I do everything in this house and she sits in her room all day and plays on facebook and i do everything of hers as well. WELL NOT ANYMORE! I’m done being Cinderella for her. She goes and talks shit about me to my mom and dad saying i don’t do anything in this house. If it was not for me we would not have a house. She has so much shit we did not even have a living room till i took over. She says yeah and everything is in her room well guess what its not my stuff its all hers i’m not going to have people come over and cant even walk in the living room and cant even sit down. She says she does everything BULL FUCKING SHIT! Sent’s we moved her she has done the dishes maybe 5 times. We have lived her for like i think 4 months and there are a lot of fucking days in 4 months. She talks so much shit to my mom because she knows my dad will freak out on her and my mom does not say anything because my mom does not want to get into it and my mom knows there is only so much i can take. I’m getting to the point where i don’t care and i’m ether going to freak out on her or not do anything of hers. Well i have started already. Starting tomorrow i’m not doing her dishes. I’m not picking up anything of hers. If she does not wash her dishes there just going to sit there because i’m not touching them. She told my mom that she picks up after my kids…AGAIN BULL FUCKING SHIT! She does not even talk to my fucking kids less they are doing something wrong..and that is only when she comes out her room to go to the bathroom or make her food. Some Grandma! God it feels good to get this all out!

To the love of my life!

The great things about loving you, is that you are so sweet to me. No matter how big a fight we get into you always say you love me and that you always will. You make be feel so good about myself. You call me names like baby and sweetheart. I love when you say you love me and say my hole name at the end of it. You text me even when you know that i’m sleeping and tell me you love me. There is so much i’m thankful for with you. You take care of me. You buy me anything i want if we have the money for it. I love you baby and i will never stop!

 There is so much love between two people never let it go. No matter how bad you fight. Remember to say i love you.